Someone came to the door just as the Chiefs were finishing their losing effort against the Ravens today. I took my usual time answering the door--I have given up running to the door like a fool--and saw a Ford pick up going down towards Elmwood. He left some enormous foot prints in the half inch of snow on the ground.
I looked around to see if any neighbors had similar visitations--they had not.
My theory is that this was a process server, with some sort of legal papers coming against me.
Kansas Board of Nursing
Missouri Department of Revenue
City of Kansas City
Old debt from AT&T
Old debt from MGE
All people who want money from me...
It really scares me and is very demoralizing to me. I am tired of having to face this stuff alone. I know that it is all my fault for managing my life so badly, but the work to disentangle it, it's a lot of work in areas I am not very good at, and I'm scared and intimidated.
I am trying to remember that God and I can handle it. Really. That I can be disciplined enough and together enough to handle whatever might come my way.
I pray so. Some days this type of stuff looks 30 feet tall and totally unmanageable.
Lord, help my unbelief!